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The reasons why I wear headphones…

So it started about 6th grade. Around this time I had a lot of problems about who I am, so I took out my stress through music. I started listening to a lot of music. Everyday I would wake up and the first thing I would do is throw on a pair of headphones. They blocked the sounds of the oppressive world and life. They are my addiction. I would spend lots of money on a really good pair. I at one point had 25 pairs of headphones, most of them costing about $100 each. Honestly, music and my headphones has saved my life more than just a couple of times. There were times where I seriously got close to killing myself (this was 7th grade and maybe some of 9th). It has got me through the rough times and they still do. Whenever I am depress or angry about something I’ll throw a pair of headphones on for hours or even days, usually not saying a word unless it was important. When I’m quiet it’s usually the point where I need them. So if you ever see me wearing headphones with the music really loud, and I’m too quiet, it might be best to leave me alone unless you’re someone special in my life. Chances are I might be hella pissed or to depress to function correctly, and these are the times where I start thinking really stupid or do stupid stuff. My headphones hep me clear my mind and just focus on one thing, they help me temporarily forget or help me think about my problem at hand cuz most of my problems other people just don’t understand…

Might have to wear a pair tomorrow….